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Was miserable-ing with what happened to my career recently, then my modem was smashed last sunday, then again I need to work out with 2 assignments in this week with my miserable feeling.

Then my dumb dumb Kif was helping me to get a place to online these few days in order to let me feel better, poor him... Now I finally finished a part of my work, & get some time to write something here...

Last night when I was rushing my assignment again in Kif's house, his mum asked me to have dinner with them, what a surprise (although I know already la actually because I was staying in the house for whole day already...) Then my first dinner with Kif's family, ended in silence & peace...
Eh why nobody talks 1 in this family?? I don't think is because of me that's why they all so diam lo... Hmmm...

The poor guy Kif get exhausted after few days rushing here & there for me, is now sleeping like a baby in his bed... I gave a kiss on his cheek just now, sleep tight my darling, I love you =3

Another hug.

Today I got 2 hugs.
1 from daddy, 1 from mummy.
My beloved daddy 1st time talked to me nicely about my future.
He said that I just need to study until graduate, but don't force myself too much.
He said he also studied in uni before, but then some of his friends end up selling fruits.
But they are happy with their simple life.
So I still can learn other things in the future, just I need to let myself to live happily now.
I like when my mum & dad hug me & patting on my back.
I like when my dad want me to sit beside him, holding my hand & told me those things.
I'm blissful enough already. I will go on with my family's support =)

Hug.

Today i requested my mum to give me a hug.
Although mum like very not used to it, but i'm very happy that she gave me that hug =)
I just need a hug from my family that cares about me, i just want to feel the value of my life from them.
Because of my family & dear, they are the ones that keep me going on my life.
Thank you mummy, can you give me hugs more often in the future??

I'm gonna make you proud.

Today is the first day of another new semester.

I had been mentally torturing myself & people beside me during the holiday.

Thanks to Auntie Zhang that shared her experience with me & helped me to open up my mind.

I have to think more optimistic from now on, & I hope I won't fall into that sad trap anymore.

I will try my best to graduate with a happy heart, not necessarily having good result.

I just wish to "peng peng onn onn" go through the rest of the semesters.

I'm gonna make my family & Kif to be proud of me in the future.
I can do it, I just need to be happier.

VIP of my life.

Still, i still feel that i can't go on with what i had decided earlier.
i think & think & think, as i was going to get crazy soon.
thank god i have a great mum. she told me something that i will never forget in my life.

"You are not like those who already married to somebody who is bad for years & cannot be changed, or already went out working & get tied to a job that they don't like forever. You still can choose, you are still young. "

"Now you are living in this family. You only need to live for yourself & this family, not other people, not even your boyfriend. So you no need to care about how other people think about you. "

& many more.
My mum suddenly turns into a philosopher. The very first time i feel that my mum is like an angel to me. She cares about me that much but i didn't really notice it before. It's my fault.

She keep on asking me to make my decision only after my exams. But my stupid brain can't stop thinking. I torture myself so much for days, & i feel that i'm going to get sick, either mentally or physically.

But today, i finally make up my mind after my mum told me those words. I feel so blissful in a sudden, i have such a great mum. I cried, without letting her know. I'm touched, that she actually wants me to be happy more than everything.

I decided to change. Although that may spend more money, but i will choose wisely this time, & i swear i will repay my mum & my family when i go to work next time, in the industry that i want of course. I feel that i owe my mum so much, that i can never pay back all the things that she sacrifices for me. The time & money & hope that she wasted on me from almost 2 years, I will pay all of them back to mum with everything that i can do.

I want to say something to the most important person in my life. I love you mum.
Thanks for everything.

I hope my another VIP kif will not jealous of her =3

Perfect choice.

When it comes to the junction that i have to make a choice, i have force myself to choose to continue my current course instead of changing it now. I scared that i may regret in the future, so better i finish it off now.

So i had asked a good friend of mine Cally to accompany for revision for the rest of the 4 semesters... at least i have a companion now who wants to work hard & go for sport together with me =) we had made a deal on that.

Then when after i graduated for this course, i can still go on to take the 2nd degree in my life, with i more preferable with something related to art design like that. Then when i reached my young age of 23, i can have 2 honour degrees, meaning 2 professions !!

With these 2 professions, i can either work in food industry or design company. At least when i have my own family in the future, i can take care of them in terms of providing them with sufficient nutritious & delicious foods, & also a good & comfortable home environment (if i choose to study in interior design in the future). How cool will that be, haha... Thinking in such a way will make myself feel much much better now =)

Kif, i remember what i have promised you, & i will be tough to get through the 4 semesters left in front of me =3

I can never forget the sad eyes of my mum when i confessed my feeling to her days ago... I'm sorry mum, i will try my best to make you proud of me in the future =) just believe me...

Decision.

Regret for thinking of this problem when it's too late to turn back.
Thanks to mum for being so understanding, but i think i will still go on 1st.
Although mum said we still affordable, but i don't think i dare to waste my family's money like that.
Not expensive ok. I will feel damn guilty.
It's my decision at 1st, so maybe i should try to finish it 1st.
At least get a cert for this 1st.
It's just less than half way only. Be strong, min, you can do it !!
even with the worst result of all, at least you tried.

Also thanks to my darling for always so understanding me, giving advices to me whenever i need them & supporting me no matter what i decided. Thank you so so much...

Nightmare + insomnia.

Had 3 days bad dream last week, and 3 days insomnia this week.
what happened to me??

Final exam starts on next Friday.
Get up & study now girl, your result isn't that good enough to pass yet.

Fever.

I'm fever now.

My doctor said I get fever because of being baked too long under the hot sun. Thanks to my lecturer Ms. Satvinder who asked us to wear formal clothes on the hottest day of the week.

Thanks for nothing.

I hate today

The weather is unusually extremely hot today.
and I'm forced to wear formal clothes & get baked like a lobster under the sun.
just to go to a chocolate factory to see only a small part of their process.
and the chocolates that I bought were FULLY melted !!

Fully melted meaning the chocolates are not only not in the original shape anymore, & guess what, they are in liquid form now !! Shit !! I've bought them for about RM50 & now they melted into a pile of useless not tasty shit ?!

and I still had to wait for hours in school for my stupid sister dismiss from her class, which she actually late from the time she told me for 2 hours, and yet she still scolded me badly, as it was my fault?!

Damn angry !! Damn sad !!
I hate the sun !! I hate all the shits happened & going to happen today !!

Visiting Willie Wonka tomorrow

Have a trip to Beryl's chocolate factory by tomorrow.

I think it will be a happy trip if we don't need to submit industrial reports after that, & tell me one thing... Did anybody try before wearing formal clothes for an industrial visit to a factory??

Don't know who's lame idea is that. We used to visit Yakult factory with our tees & slippers, & nothing goes wrong with it.

Oh well, hope that tomorrow is not a hot weather day. It's gonna be very damn hot dressing in formal wear just for a simple visit. Rain rain come please tomorrow.

Crave for sushi !!

Finally i get to taste the DREAM sushi in my life last saturday at Sushi Zanmai, The Gardens.
4 ketul of fresh unagi sushi for RM5.60 only, how cheap !!

(Sushi King's price: RM6.00 for 2 ketul of unagi sushi, freshness unidentified)

Stupid Kif just can't accept the deliciousness of unagi a.k.a. eel. He keep on imagining that it was something else in his mouth while he was chewing my precious little unagi sushi...
Just like I will never understand why he can order many many plates of egg mayo sushi while we were in Sushi King. I know it's cheap, I know it's tasty, but too much of it makes me @.@...

Ok cut the craps.

We used to think that Sushi Zanmai is very horribly expensive that we thought we will bankrupt after we stepped into it. But the price is unusually CHEAP. Cheaper than we thought. Cheaper than the cheapest Sushi King we used to eat at. And so we say bye bye to the sushis with the taste like just came out from fridge in Sushi King.

Well, after we had our supper at Sushi Zanmai that night, I think we will never go back to Sushi King anymore (which the sushi's freshness is unidentified) when our Sushi King member card expired this December.

Is there any membership to be applied for Sushi Zanmai??

By the way, Kif told me that his friend who works as part-timer in a sushi restaurant can gives us 50% discount on everything we ordered, provided he is off on that particular day and sitting together with us for the meal. When are you bringing me to that restaurant with your friend jekk?? How about after my final exam jekk??

Noticing myself is hunting for nice sushi no matter where I go. I'm turning into a evil sushi-munching monster... Muahahahahaha...
Hey, it's not a good thing to be proud or happy of, right?? That means I can't go on a diet already !! Help !! T0T

How sad

I wish to die.
You are the only reason that I can't die without regret.

The road not taken.

I have only one road. No matter it's good or bad, I still have only one road. A road that has no turning back, I can only go straight forward till the end. I don't know what will be in front, who knows, I can only wait & see.

Maybe choosing another road is much better for me, but it's too late. I can only hope for the time to fly faster, & let me know what will I be if i continue this road.

Your companion along this road will be most appreciable ever in the entire world. No matter what's in front of my future, at least I'm glad that I still have you.

Too dependent.

I know I'm wrong all this long.
Just I never think of admitting it.

I'm just a naughty child,
abandoned by the world,
& spoiled thoroughly by you.

I want to say that I'm sorry.

Sorry.

Lepak

Final exam is just around the corner (still got 1 more month... )

Last Saturday, I told Melisa: "hey, next time after class we study together for final ok?? I don't want lepak lepak chit chit chat chat sleep and waste my time anymore, I must study !! "

In the end leh??

I went to Fangyin & June's condo today. The following are the activities I/we did this evening:
1. Sleep (the first thing I did)
2. Chit chit chat chat, crapping
3. Listen to music from computer
4. Play sudoku online
5. Show off "yat-ji-ma" & "gong-kiu"
6. Enjoy free demonstration of taekwando skills

!!!!!
What did I say with full of confidence last week har?? OMG...

Actually I still got do a little homework la, but the progress is very, very, very slow... (because I need to sambil do the above stuffs so... )
& I did revised some part of the Vitamin C chapter of N&M subject la, kira bagus already, muahahaha...

Tasks to be done:
1. Analytical Chemistry LAB 7 - lab report discussion
Lack of info about the normal level of urine calcium.

2. Food Microbiology assignment - hazard analysis & CCP
Lack of idea to bluff about all the hazards & process steps of canned curry chicken...

3. Preparation for Food Preservation presentation
Lack of time to ask the person with info about the detail of what I can talk about.

4. Nutrition & Metabolism (N&M) LAB 9 - lab report introduction
Lack of mood to start doing it as I still have the above tasks...


& I'm so lack of sleep since this sem. Argh~~ Nobody knows...
Hopefully I can finish all the jobs above before this weekend...
(But I know it's totally impossible, wuuwuuwuu~~ why does this happening to me... )

Bobblehead doll

Where can I find a cute bobblehead doll that fits the one in my mind and my purse??

After me & my friends had our too much full up stomach due to the too much food we ordered in Fong Lye Restaurant, we decided to go for a walk in the mall for better digestion, which made the rich girls went in and out those horrible & unaffordable shops again & again...

The other 5 poor ones were forced to teleport themselves from the Gardens to a more affordable place, which like one of us said, dropping from heaven back to reality again... swt

I was looking for bobblehead doll which I promised my dear that I want to buy for his birthday (which just passed few days ago and my present is damn late already...) before we left Gardens.

But then the bobblehead owl which I was intended to buy at Action City has a heavenly price of nearly RM100 !! Argh !!

I rather kill myself for a tiny shaking-head toy... Yes it's really cute... But I have to force myself from not buying it, as I can't afford to squeeze my purse kao kao and end up eating nothing for days (or weeks)... sob sob sob...

And after we moved our location to Megamall (so called the Reality World), I still can't find the bobblehead doll that I want. Not that I'm fussy in choosing the right style, but hello, why does most of the shops not selling it at all??

But then I still bought a pretty shirt at a non-heavenly price... RM19.60, damn cheap can used as floor mat as well muahahahaha...

Sorry my poor dear, maybe I'll try to fix a time for us to look for some other bobblehead dolls at Sunway this weekend, ok?? (innocently...)

so much to say.

but only 2 things I want to mention more.

1st
I've finally get myself out from thinking too much of negative things & stress. & I have some new friends now.

2nd
I have a somebody who very love me care about me understand me & always know how to make me to feel happy again. My boyfriend.
He is the person that I appreciate most in the world. For him, I must learn to live more happier from now on.

I love you Kif.

finally decided.

opening a new blog.

claps for the whole new place.

welcome.